Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
April 6, 2011 Home
I am home back in Minnesota with all the comforts of home, but my heart aches. Something is missing, it seems I left my heart with the children of Haiti. I took my dog for a walk today and as I was walking I was thinking there are no children to scoop up and love. I can’t walk the few short blocks to Mother Theresa’s to comfort the children who are hurting. The children of Haiti brought so much joy to my heart with their sweet smiles and all the love they give to perfect strangers. I go to make a differnce in their lives but in the end they make an even bigger diffence in mine.
As I reflect back on my trip it is hard to put into words the expriences I had while I was in Haiti, hard to explain everything I felt. I had so much hope and excitement on this trip, so much more than I ever expected as I prepared to go back. The expirience of coming back to this familiar place that I already loved made every minute so much more fufilling. I was able to see everything in a whole new light! On my first trip I spent time trying to figure out what I should be doing, wondering if I was really making a difference, and wondering if I should be giving them something more than love when they needed so much. This trip I was confident I was there because God had sent me to LOVE his beautiful Hatian people! It felt so good to know my purpose in Haiti and look for ways to give more and love more. I was able to see that when I visit Citi Soli I am showing God’s love and water that they might not receive otherwise. It’s about putting God first, others second, and myself last. This trip wasn’t about me but yet even still I received so much. I was able to see children I had seen just nine months earlier. They had grown and changed in so much in just a few short months. I saw so much beauty I saw all around me; from the green mountains, the beautiful people, the eyes of the adorible children, the laughter of a sick child, the people out clearing debrea from the earthquake. It was all so exciting to me!
My first trip I drove through Port Au Prince and saw tragedy and destruction. Now I see hope, progress, and restoration. I see it in the people too and that gives me so much happiness, hope, and joy. I can only imagine what it will be like when I go back again to this amazing plae! I go there to Haiti give, but I return with so much more than I gave. God is so good, I am so thankful he gave me Haiti. I pray that he will continue to give me opportunities to love those around me and that he will help me to shine his light in all I do until I can go back again.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
March 5th Leaving Haiti….
As I sit here in this airport and reflect on the trip I find myself very content yet filled with so many feelings. There is a big part of me that doesn’t want to come home yet, but I’m excited to see friends and family as well. I often wonder why Haiti? Why did I come to Haiti? But when I’m here I know why. God is so present in everything. Haiti is a beautiful country but yet so much poverty. Where someone might see despair and garbage I see the kid flying a kite or the men fishing in the ocean. Haiti is a place that brings me joy and makes me smile. When I’m in Haiti it is much easier for me to completely let go and let God. Why is it when I get home I try to control things and try to do things my own way?
When I’m in Haiti it’s a constant reminder to me as to how extremely blessed I am. This is something I often take for granted or simply over look. It’s the little things in life like being able to brush your teeth with clean water from the faucet, taking a hot shower, walking down the street and not being covered in dust, simply walking down a paved street with sidewalks, or having enough food to eat. In America these are things we expect, but here it would be a luxury. I’ve learned that God doesn’t want me to feel guilty about where I live but He wants me to remember all that He has blessed me with and challenges me to extend the love and grace that I am so richly blessed with to those less fortunate. Whether this is in Haiti or Minnesota or where ever, I know that God is calling me serve and be thankful for all that He has given me. Nothing that I have is because of me, but it is all from Him and should be used for Him. But why is that so hard to do in America? I think God is teaching me that it is important for me to extend grace to others as God has extended to me. This isn’t always easy, but if someone has done it for me shouldn’t I be willing to do it for others?
Leaving Haiti makes me sad, but I am joyful for all that God has used me for and what He has done in my heart. We serve an amazing God and I know He has great plans for the country of Haiti.
Monday, April 4, 2011
April 1, 2011
Today we went to see the elderly. We stopped at the Market to buy them goats and Chickens to give the elderly.They will use the goats for milk and the chickens for eggs. When we went to bring one of the women some chickens we found out she had just lost her daughter, I felt so bad for her in such sorrow.
We went to Yavonne’s to see the children at the orphange. It was so great to see them again and see how they’ve grown. One little girl in particular brought me so much joy to see her again, Kishna …the last time I saw her I could bairly get her to smile today she was all smiles. It made me so happy to see her smiling and happy.
Friday, April 1, 2011
March 31, 2011
Today we went to see Grace Village the orphanage that is being built in Titanyen. On the way to see the orphanage we stopped to see the mass gravesite it was incredibly humbling to see all the lives that were lost in the earthquake. The crosses represent all the lives lost, the number of crosses is only a small representation of all the lives lost. It was so sad to think of all the people who lost family members. I pray the people who lost family will find comfort in knowing they will see them again in heaven.
Grace Village has made so much progress! The orphanage is going to be so beautiful. The feeding center is going to feed so many people and the children will be able to run and play overlooking the beautiful view of the ocean.
We went to Gilliums to see the kids and measure them for uniforms. Jackoline was so cute sining all the time, we got some really cute video of her just singing her little heart out. When I picked he up she ws so cuddly, she loved hanging upside down and being tickled. She didn’t want any of the other kids to play with me she wanted me all to herself. She would hit them because they were touching me, little stinker. It was so great to see the kids again.
Tonight went to Fanfan’s bible study. It was great to worship with them. There was a little boy sitting next to me who was so cute he was so passionate about worship. He would tell me what I was suppose to be doing ;stand up , raise your hand and wave it…it was really cute how he wanted to make sure I knew what to do. It was so great to expirience their faith and worship, so encouraging.
Thursday, March 31, 2011